Have you ever wondered if the Blue I see is the same blue you see?  That maybe the blue you see is actually the red I see but we both know the color to be blue?

I wonder what gets people through their hard times. Is it just the motivation to get to a better place or trying to quickly remove them from embarrassment? More than likely it’s something else.

The last year was and still is very hard. I keep getting brought down, especially financially from things that happened last year.

I had a 4wd that died in the middle of the Australian Outback. I was with a mate who shafted me to the nearest town while he continued on his trip. I will comment that we are no longer friends.

I spent 4-5 thousand getting it ready for this trip 3500 km into the bush. Then the engine dies something I couldn't have avoided. I then spend $3000 getting home between flights for me and my partner. As I had to return to work, the repair would take 3-4 weeks.

I had to leave a thousand dollar deposit for them to get the parts so I did. They said they would fix it.

A few weeks later I received a phone call that the cars motor has destroyed itself, pistons, head, block, turbo etc... And the repair would be on the $15,000 plus. So I distraught, try to return the car home. As it was full of camping gear it is refused on mainstream transport. So I get it on the back of a freight truck that went close to where I lived.700Km away. I grab a good mate and head to that town with a car trailer to tow it home slowly. I pay $1000 for the town from the outback to this town (which was a very good price 2400 km away!).

The morning after I arrive in town we are ready to return home. About 400m down the road at about 40 km, the trailer jack knifes and rolls. Damaging the trailer and my mate’s car and rolling my 4wd completely destroying it.
Now I have a huge debt that I have to pay compliments of an insurance company that won’t pay.

I finally got over most of the accident bills about $5000, after repairing mates car and trailer.

At the same time I had to prepay a Christmas holiday with family mandatory, a few thousand, and had to move our rental house.

Very stressful times.

Then now my brother comes home to live with the parents and is bringing them close to divorce. He reckons he has mental health issues, but all I see is a slacker who isn’t motivated.

I have a beautiful girlfriend that tries hard to keep me sane, I keep myself busy and socialize. But it’s always niggling away at the back of my mind how hard things keep getting. Even though I have paid the accident off. A new wave of bills keeps hitting.... grrr.

How do you my brothers of AOM, stay strong and keep you motivation up?