I'm a guy 20 years old. I feel like I've ran down the mill. I live with my dad but with him we don't get along that well at times. So I'm really at a pinch where I feel lost without purpose.
It would be nice to have someone to push me, I live in the Netherlands here there's no mentor programs or something that I know off. I tried to find some salvation in the church and became a christian, but I'm still lost... I don't feel like I used my time/life well. I want to be like Maximus from Gladiator. Or like Hannibal who conquered the romans. Or any other male type. Even Mufasa from the lion king is a character I respect.
I'm at a loss of words now, as I struggle with depression, shop addiction and pornography addiction. I get psychological help, but it's not enough to ease the pain.