I've kind of hit a snag in my life. I live with my parents, I have NO money,no job, Can't drive my car cuz I don't have money for insurance,I'm getting fat,I have to wait till at least the winter to take any college classes,and I have no way to fix any of this. Its gotten to the point where there is really no point in getting up in the morning because nothing I do really matters. I nap all day and it's no different than if I were to get up at the crack of dawn.
The worst part is,I'm starting to lose my confidence. I don't want to be bum. Any advice?
Ask youself this question. "Why dont I have any money?" ans. You need to have a job and stop asking your parents for money. Got get a job ANYWHERE. Video store, coffee shop, restaurant, anywhere. Take advantage of living at home. If your parents see you working they will be more likely to help you out. Dont have a car? Try riding your bike to work... maybe your parents would drive you to work.
Have a purpose for your life. Get a goal... write down three goals.
1. Get a job
2. Eat fruit and nuts instead of hotpockets
3. Buy a car ( your parents may offer to help buy you a car if you show them you are saving money.)
The main thing is getting your ass up off the couch and start doing something. You must make it happen, no one will do it for you.
Get a job. If you can't find a job (and it is very difficult right now) do some volunteer work. I know it sounds lame but service really does help. Are you getting any sun? Or are you staying indoors until sundown? Make sure you get out and get some sunshine. Our bodies need sunlight to produce vitamin D. It affects depression and feeling of well being. Go to the public library and check out some motivational books. Spend some time during the day in the library and read the magazines they have available. You'll get some much needed face time with real people. Start forcing yourself to read instead of spending so much time in front of the TV or on the computer. Come up with a plan. It will help you feel like you have a direction and goals.
1. Get out and see the sun.
2. Go to your public library.
3. Get off the couch and move your butt. Even if it's just a long walk.
4. Get a job.
5. While looking for a job do some volunteer work.
I pretty much echo everything everyone has said. When I've been in a rut, the only cure I've found is getting started on something, anything. You'll probably have to force yourself to do it and it won't be enjoyable. But once you get moving, things get better. It's Newtonian. Body's at rest stay at rest. You're going to have to will your way out of rest.
The car situation is rough because most places in America aren't designed for the pedestrian and you need a car to get anywhere. Is there anyway your parents can help you in this department until you have enough to pay for insurance? Even if you start off flipping burgers or whatever, you should make enough to cover transportation.
The other thing is to take any job you can get. Don't be too picky because let's be honest, there's no room for pickiness. Any work is noble if done well. Most of us have worked the fast food jobs. No shame in it. When you get a job, bust your butt at it, but keep your eyes open for better job opportunities.
And speaking of school. You mentioned going to college. What do you plan on doing as a career? If hitting the books for four years and taking on student loans just so you can land a crummy job office isn't your idea of the good life, consider going to vo-tech. Technical skills are high demand right now, but there's not enough trained employees. Car mechanics, welders, plumbers, carpenters, you name it. Check the only course catalog for you local vo-tech. What's great about them, too, is that they don't cost an arm an leg like college do, so you won't be spending the first 10 years of your career digging yourself out of the hole of student loan debt.
I'm no psychologist, and far be it from me to pretend I really know what you're going through, but, speaking from personal experience, I will say that the sentiment that "nothing I do really matters" is indicative of depression. Regardless of ambition, such a feeling of apathy and helplessness can entirely kill your motivation. I agree with Brett, and think the best place to start is by evaluating your goals. If you figure out what you want to accomplish and work backwards from there to see what is required to achieve your goals, you'll be given a sense of direction.
Exercise is also vitally important. Aside from the more obvious health benefits, getting yourself into a regular workout routine will increase your motivation and self-confidence and help provide you with a sense of purpose. The simple act of exercise has been known to relieve the symptoms of depression.
Finally, if things really only ever seem to get worse and your sense of purposelessness only grows, I would suggest that you seek some form of counseling.
I was diagnosed with depression a number of years ago.I take medication for it and it clearly makes a difference,but It only prevents depression from natural chemical imbalance,which is what I have. In other words, It enables me to be happy,but I still can become depressed because of external issues such as the death of a loved one or life being sucky issues.
My mom has that mentality of buying whatever is cheap and on sale. I would eat fruits and vegetables if she would buy them. I have been eating a steady supply of sunflower seeds though.
I do have a few hobbies,but again, no money. Pretty much everything I like to do costs at least a little bit of money.
And the job, well its damn near impossible right now.
Why is college impossible by the way? While you do have to apply and be admitted to a four year school months ahead of time, you can typically enroll in a community college up until the very day classes start. Have you looked into that? Please do and report back.
I've been accepted and I was going to start in the fall,but by the time I went to sign up for classes all the ones I had any interest in were taken. I don't really have any clue what I want to study anyway.
Don't take classes you're interested in. Rather, take classes that will transfer to the core curriculum in the four-year school you'll attend in the fall. Math, English, history, political science, chemistry, etc. Start knocking those courses out now to get them out of the way.
They'll be easier and you'll get more personal attention at a community college. And the forced rigor of summer will be good for you.
I know a bit about dealing with Churchill's "black dog". The absolute worst thing you can do for yourself is to continue to throw the "pity party" you've described. Yeah, it's exceptionally tough to self-motivate when you are totally depressed or thoroughly exhausted, but that's what you have to do. Step one. The absolute hardest one of all.
Walk your butt around the block. Sometime just moving the corpuscles around is enough to pull you out of a rut.
Step two. Knock off the excuses. "Buck up!"
Step three. Per everyone else above, get a job. Even if you're just mowing the neighborhood lawns at $5.00 a pop, or flipping burgers at an entry-level no benefits gig, the structure and cash inflow will help your mental attitude. And don't let the fact that you might get turned down stop you. It's like broadcasting seed, the more you put out, the more results you get.
I can appreciate your situation because I've been through it and still go through it from time to time.
For some people it happens to last longer than others. I say begin to limit the amount of time you spend living it up on the internet. It can be just as much of a enabler as the boob tube. Just as empty too. While your at it, put yourself on a tv diet as well.
Get out and talk with some people even if they are compete strangers. Do some volunteer work in your community. You can end up having 400 "pretend friends" on your Myspace page and not even know your next door neighbor. We live in strange times.
You're not alone, and actually some people are probably worse off. (Living on the streets/in prison).
P.S. count your blessings and make a graditude list. Things you are thankful for. Yes I'm totally stealing that from Oprah, but it is a powerful tool to help you get focused once again.
You can work out all day. Do push ups and sit ups. Jog and jump rope and lift weights. When you go to college in the winter you will be totaly ripped and the girls will fall at your feet. You've got the time to turn yourself into a Greek god.
In many ways I envy you. No bills, no rent, free food, no responsibilities- sounds like you are living in paradise.
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