Well, I am not really sure where to begin with this. But I feel like I need some help and the people on here seem like a great group. I am a long time lurker but this is my first post. I am 22 years old and British.
Basically, over the past year I have had a couple of episodes of depression (each lasting between 4 and 6 months and often linked to something happening in my life at the time). The first time was just after I finished at University and the second time was when I began a temporary job in January. Luckily, I managed to move past both episodes with some tablets and counselling.
More recently, I have made a huge life change and am currently living in South Korea (I have been here about two weeks) teaching English. I am having a great time so far, have met a great group of friends and feel like I am settling in. However, every morning I go through episodes of extreme loneliness, anxiety and general low mood. I have not been able to work out why. Once I begin teaching (or have done a few classes) I feel fine. I have been making myself go out and socialise a lot more than I would back home (I have been out for dinner and coffee every night since I arrived). My big worry is that this is the beginnings of another period of depression.
I don't know if I am looking for advice, or support or...just some people to tell my troubles to. But thank you for taking the time to read this. I am happy to read any thoughts or advice you may have!
In my case, leaving depression consisted of two changes.
1) I identified what it was about my life that I could not accept
2) I accepted it
It took me a decade to find this out. I hope it will go more quickly for you.
The acceptance had to do with giving up control to what AA calls HP (Higher Power): that I could live with it if I couldn't force the universe to what I wanted (and I could not).
Hey Ricky, welcome and feel free to hang out and share as much as you want whenever.
I've struggled with depressive seasons myself.
Here is what I found works for me. 3,000 units of Vitamin D and a 45 minute walk in the morning.
The Vitamin D helps the luls or down point from being so bad. I know I'm down but its not neerly as bad. The walk triggers all sorts of chemicals in the brain to help get you re-centered.
As the morning is your lonely point in the new nation. Take the walk then! Look around, after a few weeks you will notice the in's and out of the daily routine the area you walk.
Please check in with us also on this tread every few weeks. We'll root for ya.
Vitamin D has helped. I actually purchased a 'Happy light' that produces a broad spectrum of light that seems to help.
Also, I've found that having good friends to laugh with can help. Also, when people are open for some good long hugs or perhaps some good ole fashioned snuggle time. Then again, touch is an important thing for me.
Wow, my niece just moved there teaching English, about a month now.
She's pretty and available and could use a good man in her life..go get her!!!
I don't think it is depression; I think it is homesickness. It is a far different culture than what you grew up with and because of that you feel you don't belong. My wife suffered similar reactions from moving from Buffalo to New Orleans and that is just within the US. And yes we speak English (sort of) in Louisiana.
I just want to say thank you for all the responses and I am sorry it has taken me a while to get back to you all. I am hoping that it is just homesickness and me adjusting to such a large change in my life.
Like Rick was saying, I think it might be a feeling of 'not belonging'. I have left all my old support structures behind, and although they are only a phone call away, it still does not feel the same. When I am with friends I feel fine most of the time. I get the occasional bout of loneliness but generally they happen when I am alone in the mornings.
Thank you all again. Your advice is greatly appreciated.
And Carl (if you see this), what part of Korea? I live in Cheongju, which is the capital of Chungbuk province. It is pretty much right in the middle.