I'll keep this short, been a long time lurker of all things AoM but I recently wanted to get involved in the book club so I signed up for an account on the forums. I'm a student of many years, lover of the outdoors, and general merrymaker.
Recently though I've felt myself become someone different. I recently moved out of the region that I've lived in for my entire life (I've done extensive travel in my few years of freedom, but nothing is like home) to go to an internship. That internship turned into a job and it scares the hell out of me, which isn't normal, I've always been kind of the crazy guy in college and I always thought I would relish being out of the Homeland. I just feel powerless and scared most of the time recently, like I don't have a grip on my life and I can't do anything. My relationship with God is very important to me, but even that has been eluding me.
Well... I didn't mean to really get into all that, but once I started writing I guess I realized I hadn't told anyone yet and I needed it out, I suppose. Anyway, all that aside, glad to be part of the group here and excited to talk about Books and whatnot in the Book Club.
Most men probably go through the growing pains you're describing. I hope you find the happy medium between evolving into your new role without losing who you are. The world needs crazy guy's and general merrymakers too.
Welcome to AOM.