Hello gentlemen.

I'm a 27-year old student from Sweden. I've been following AoM for the better part of two years, but just now found the urge and need to sign up for the community.

I've had a growing discomfort these last few days, not quite able to put my finger on it. Nothing is really wrong with my life, and yet I feel incredibly empty. I'm doing fine in school (master's of psychology), I have a pretty fun albeit not very fulfilling job on the side, and an abode and car I like. I've had a very loving relationship since two years with a girl I still go crazy for. I work out and meditate regularly, try to read good books and have recently taken up Brazilian Ju-Jitsu, which is the most challenging and stimulating sport I've ever tried.

And, still...

This last month, I've had a few close calls. A snowboarding accident left me with a cracked helmet and a bitin' concussion. A few days ago I lost control of my car on an icy highway and was inches from going into the guardrail. This has led to me review and reflect on what I actually do with my days, and the answer is 'not a lot'. Hell, on my sunday off today, I've mostly played video games and watched The Walking Dead. After some supposedly deep epiphanies about how fragile mine and everybodys' day to day life can be, and still I waste all this time.

I've long felt like I'm living life on the sidelines, with no direction. No doubt there are a lot of us here who have felt and feel the same thing. Hell, maybe that's what made you sign up here, like me. Hopefully this will be the start of something beautiful and different.

I'm happy and honored to be in the company of gentlemen such as yourself. I look forward to the time ahead.

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I'm going to be the @#$% here and tell you to join an organization of some sort. That, or find something else to build. I have little ground from which to tell you this because I haven't yet taken my own advice as of late, but that'll get the ball rolling.

Try to get out of the house as much as possible.

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