I have recently been having a few issues with strange mood swings I cannot understand. I seem to go from one very high mood to an extremely low mood on the fly with no explanation, and I burn out very quickly after I begin expending energy. I've been to the doctor's and there's concern I may have manic depression. Instead of wanting to depend on pills to keep myself level, I want to try to find ways of levelling myself out a bit naturally. I am wondering if there is a way to do this because I'm finding myself having a few difficulties. I came here to ask some opinions and advice.
these last few months, I've been finding myself struggling to concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes. I'm struggling to do things I used enjoy a lot from martial arts to reading (though in all fairness, my eyesight is getting worse over the years, so that might be a factor on that front). I was wondering if anyone knew anything I could look into to help me increase my concentration.
I exercise ever day in some form (usually a form of cardio like running, and weight lifting 4 times a week). Speaking of which, my exercise in the gym is all drop set based (since it's the only way I've noticed any kind of gains been made). I get about 8-10 hours sleep each night usually. I try to eat healthily and try to diet in a way that helps my testosterone levels (An issue I've been having for the last year is my body isnt producing hormones quite high enough) I'm having protein every meal, servings of mixed fruit and vegetables, I drink plenty of water too. I'm something of a tea lover, but I dont drink it much these days. I also have started to steer away from alcohol as I've been known to binge drink when I feel low. I'm on possibly half a unit a week at highest these days.
I also meditate when I can, but again, concentration is lapsing and I find myself easily stirred out of it.
Is there anything I can really do to aid in my focus and stability? I'm working on my degree but my inability to sit still and just focus on anything is making me concerned.
You seem to be doing all the right diet and exercise things, and getting enough sleep (though 10 hours could also signal depression depending on how hard it is to get up after that long a rest).
You mention hormone levels; when was your last physical and blood work? Perhaps a T supplement is an option. I also wouldn't rule out antidepressant medication, not to do the work for you but to take the edge off a little bit. (It won't change your personality, just maybe smooth out a part you don't like.) Concentration issues could also mean ADD, though maybe not, since ADD and depression symptons can overlap a bit.
Cognitive therapy might help also. Read the book "Feeling Good" by David Burns. Lots of tips on how to adjust your thinking so you feel better and get more done. Good luck to you.
If it's any consellation, I'm a diagnozed dyspraxic too, and apparently it's not unheard of for dyspraxia to cause some of these things, though my temparment change has been recent, as well as th lack of focus. I'm not one to want to rely on taking a substance to take the edge off, since I learned that with the alcohol.
As for the sleep, I find it almost impossible to get up in the morning. I set my alarm obnoxiously loud and have to put very high energy rock music on and place it at the other end of the room to even get myself out of bed to turn it off (having an alarm next to me makes it easy for me to laze about in bed all day feeling awful)
Thanks for the book link, I'll give it a check
Im a student, I stay busy. As far as friends, I have a small close circle. Family, well, it's never been perfect. We've had some bad phases over the last few years but we're all past that. As far as love life, well, I wont say it's ideal. I tend to attract girls with daddy issues or ones who just mess me about. I've not had sex since december to be honest, but it was underwhelming (first time) so Im not to bothered by sex. I've dated since but been messed about. Me and the girl have since made up, but that was a mess of a breakup. In fact if I'm brutally honest, I'm not even looking for a partner, just some fun while I'm young to get experience under my belt. A fair amount of women I know have shown interest at some point, so I can afford not to be looking for much right now.
I'm not concerned over a job as of yet since Im focusing on my degree and hobbies: playing the shamisen, singing, martial arts etc.
Don't be so quick to judge medications unfavourably. If there is a brain chemistry issue it is a good idea to at least try them out. Exercise and diet can help offset depression but manic is something to take very seriously since the brain is firing off neurons in a non-typical manner.
Someone can be non-logical and act in a harmful manner towards themselves and others without their 'typical brain' realizing it or being able to react against it until the situation is over and they're looking around going "wtf just happened?" They don't know because they were literally not the same person.
Think of it this way: if you blow out your mcl you would wear a brace would you not? Being reliant of over-the-counter medications and painkillers is different from using a medically designed brace for your brain.
call me direct here, but you seem to be lumping most variations of behavioural and emotional disorders into 'dangerous individual' category. Manic depression isn't widely known for the violent blackouts you seem to be suggesting, and I'm sure that, since I've come to 21 without having one of the violent outbursts you are raising, coupled with the fact my doctors don't seem to think I pose a threat at this point.
There's also the note that the medication they have recommended me, for the first few weeks, has some side effects that I personally don't fancy putting myself through (suicidal urges being one of them, and reduced sexual function isn't looking too good either, given my near none existent sex life as is) So I'd rather find another strategy that doesn't require me to put substances into my body.
I'd say at the moment, I'm more stable than I've been over the last month or so.
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well i hate to be the ass hole but give this a try. FUCK. violent angry passionate sex always helps me.
Go see a good urologist and get those testosterone levels up where they belong. In addition, if you didn't cover it at your doctor's visit, get your blood sugar evaluated. I'm not an expert on anything related to medical conditions, but you are describing something that could easily be low testosterone or blood sugar issues.